I woke up, got dressed and went to work this morning. I didn’t want to. These days I just want to sit and do nothing but think. Thinking, however, drives me crazy. My mind rushes from one thought to another. It focuses on one thought or idea and then cleverly builds a grand plan that is then so easily swept aside as a new thought penetrates my brain. I just wish all this thinking would burn more calories. Being a widow is bad enough but then adding fat to the equation, just makes it worse. Ben was supposed to be deployed for a year. I was supposed to have a year to get my ass back into shape. I was just coming out of the “eat everything in sight because Ben just left and I don’t have to start exercising just yet because I have a year to get into shape” mode and then he went and died on me. I need to get back into the gym......maybe tomorrow. But for now, I sit here thinking and waiting for my first shipment of NutriSystem to arrive while eating some delicious chocolate truffles. Maybe thinking isn't so bad after all!
